“Once in recovery I was able to start asking ‘Is this me or Anna talking?’” Warning: This post contains sensitive images related to eating disorders.
Begnell collated her eating disorder illustrations in her book, Me and My ED.
In her drawings, Begnell’s anorexia is personified by a character called Anna.
Anna is separate to me. My eating disorder is separate to me. Anna has different motives to me; different goals, different values. Identifying her as separate to me gave me the power to fight against her or the option to follow her.
In the depths of my illness it was difficult to know who was speaking because I had become so intertwined with Anna, but once in recovery I was able to start asking, “Is this me or Anna talking?